I didn't sleep well at night... Something "SERIOUS" happened yest and I think it might be a good thing for someone....

Bro saw Jeff with another gal, holding hands @ Bugis yesterday and came and told me about me...

Somehow, having mixed feelings... I don't really feel good but at the same time, I thought it might be a good thing...

Those who are very close me, will know that Jeff has been "with" me for quite sometime... It has been like 10 years since I know him during my sec school period.

He has been a good guy... I hurt him like once when I was together with Kenneth... And he has been "physically" there when I was down and he treated me like his gf...

At many times, people advised me not to give him false hopes if I am not willing to accept him back as a bf... But I simply take him for granted... We even had a name for him, "AHMAD" . . . Coz he sent me to work almost every day without fail... I am like a "taitai" being chauffered every day to work, sometimes, he even picked me up from my workplace den home...

He is like part of my family... Like a family friend...

BUT, I thought this time round, I shld do something that is cruel but GOOD to both of us, especially him...

I called him up... and wished him all da best to him and da girl... He said sorry... But I told him sorry isnt the word to tell me.. (Coz he didnt do anything wat..) I told him that I will stop contacting him as I dont wish to see history repeats again... I wished him all the best and I will nv nv contact him again..... He kept saying sorry...

Part of me, I feel kinda hurt coz I am too used to him in my life...

But I shldnt be too much to keep "holding" him and he isnt getting any younger....

Moreoever, I have a Boyfriend and I am contented to be with him...

So Jeff, all the best to u... I know its the best thing I cld do... Thanks for being with me all these years and everyone can see you love me alot but too bad, we really dont have fate.... I hope u can find a gal who can settle down with you, married and have kids.. coz I know this is what u wan yet I told u b4, I cant do that with u ... I am sorry.... Thanks for being such a wonderful friend, soulmate... I cried when I talked to u last night coz part of me is struggling... I always thought there is always U no matter what.. But I think its too much for me to think of that and letting u go and nv contact u is the best solution... Thanks for everything and I believe u can still be a good father of Brandy. I dont want to take her back because I know u loved her alot. I shall give Brandy to u, as a companion and she holds a memorable past of us :) All the best Friend :)

Come to think of it again... it might be a good thing coz I am thinking how to tell him about my r/s with Son... So now.. I dont need to crack my head anymore.

(p/s: Still hurtz a lil....)